love thyself

Posted by james (manila, Philippines) on 21 November 2007 in Animal & Insect and Portfolio.

dont know what exactly to write today and neither can i find a nice poem or songs or hymns to suit this photo.

man are selfish. because they sell fish to the cat.... dal? what is this non-sense?

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okay serious now....

John piper of desiring God ministry wrote something very beautiful in one of the letter he addressed to his wife Noel concerning the adoption. They did adopted a child after that.

I cannot remember it word for word. so, please allow me just to paraphrase what he has said....

"in this life we are not able to achieved all that we have desired in our heart.... our goal and our dreams do sometimes failed us.... but perhaps what mattered most is to live each day in humble faith and love.... till He comes. "

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may tomorrow not just be another day. tomorrow, i will be flying away to my Father's bosom.... wait on HIM i say!

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Aillen's father passed away. He died of complicated Parkinson's disease, and grade 2 sacral ulcer and DM type 2.

sorrows are beyond measure. I know how she feels....my father passed away also about 3 months ago. He died of acute MI after coronary angiography.

what is similar with both of us is that our clinical eyes have both betrayed us. Just as we think that they are getting better after hospital discharge, they left us behind...without last words, cold, not even a goodbye.

i have learned that in all those moments of extreme sorrows.... no words of comforts are needed, no explanations are required of why things happened like this or that.... a shoulder to cry on and a heart to understand is all that a person need in those moments of deep valleys of sorrow.

tonight, we cried together.

aillen is still the very same aillen i remembered years ago. She still loves the Lord, still serving Him, what has changed is a more matured face and a more matured outlook about this life.

words run short, i just want to be there for her, quietly perhaps... like what Dana has done for me when my grandfather passed away 2 years ago.

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she said something very beautiful tonight.... she said that doctors and lawyers are all going to lose their job one day...when we get there in heaven. Because in heaven, no illness, thus no need of doctor; no quarrels, thus no need of laywers. so what is going to become of us, doctors, when we get there one day?

we are unemployed.

therefore, what is the most significant thing to do on this earth become apparent..... what will last for eternity.... and what will really count.....and last.

therefore, becoming a physician is not the most important thing anymore, when a person sees the eternity.

therefore, the first shall be the last, and the last shall be the first.

the most prestigious job here on earth will one day be listed on the unwanted job in heaven.

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Aillen has all the potential to top the board exam here in the phlippines. she graduated valedictorian during high school, and magna cum laude in college.... and received full scholarship in medical school.....

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i think i have found something in the Bible to best describe her. it is what Paul has said in Philippians 3:8,

"What is more, I consider everything a loss compared to the surpassing greatness of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord, for whose sake I have lost all things. I consider them rubbish, that I may gain Christ."

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what is most tough when a dear one passed away is not those moments nigh to death... but the attacks of sorrows and difficulties that comes afterward......!

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May the Lord brings her the comforts that man can not bring.